Things are still going really well!
The cravings for sweets and coffee have still not gone away. Though i have discovered an instant coffee that doesn’t taste to bad black, and I enjoyed a cup of that the day before yesterday. I think I’m going to make myself another cup here in a few minutes. My daughter is down for her afternoon nap and I need to get cleaning.
One thing that I’ve really noticed, is how lazy I’ve been feeling the last few days. That very well could be because of the way I’m eating, or just about any other thing going on in my life right now. Maybe I need to try eating more, so I have more energy? I don’t know. I know it seems ironic, but I have a hard time eating those 3 square meals a day. I always have my breakfast milkshake in the morning, it tastes just fine, but It still takes me a while to finish it. Then I basically just forget to eat until it’s later at night and Justin is telling me that he’s hungry.
He has been complaining quite a bit about this whole thing, asking me if we can have this or that, and it’s really not very helpful at all. If he would just stop thinking of eating as something to do for fun, I think he would be having a much easier time with all of it. But he just loves to graze! He just eats and munches and snacks on anything that’s in the kitchen, and in my opinion, he eats way to much. We bought a container of Orange-Banana juice yesterday. I had one glass (That he drank from too) and the rest he finished. In one day. Why? Why? Why? What’s wrong with drinking water? Or tea for that mater? I don’t have any problem saying no to doing these things whatsoever, and I just wish I understood what he’s thinking when he gorges himself like this. I need to figure out a way to talk to him, without me seeming to be against him. But at the same time, he is a very tall, big man and I don’t want him starving, obviously. I don’t know how much he is supposed to be eating in the first place. So I suppose I have no place to talk.
I don’t feel like I’ve lost an weight, though i don’t know for sure because I don’t own a scale. D: I do feel a lot less bloated though. I don’t feel like a big blimp floating through space like I used to. The only thing I really have to complain about is my lack of motivation. Before I started my diet I would usually have either a coffee or an energy drink 2 out of 3 days. If I have a problem being addicted to something, it’s caffeine. Even though I’ve discovered that I can have my normal total zero Red Bull without cutting any corners, I still feel like that’s kind of a treat. I don’t know why, but I still feel like it’s not healthy at all for me to have. So I’m going to stick with my cup of black coffee I’m going to make here after I finish the last of my shake from this morning.
I have to get my little brother Ajay off the bus today at 3, and I want to get the living room cleaned up and vacuumed, and the dishes done before he gets here so I don’t have to worry about it later. And right now, I’m wasting my time blogging! Haha.
catch ya later!